Sunday, May 24, 2009

take time to realize.

haha no, not the song... i just realized something. i is a crazy time for me, adjusting to a new home and all that good stuff. so i wake up one morning, and i decide to go out and just look around from my balcony. i look to the left, and then to the right. and i see this:

i noticed the philippine flag standing out to me; and not only that, but the scenery looked as if it were from a movie my mom would be watching from our living room. i also realized that i took the american flag for granted. oh how id love to see one hanging again. but oh well, soon enough. :]

Friday, May 22, 2009

my journey...

so i got to philippines at about 11:40 am on may 21st, 2009. heres the blogs i wrote on the way....

May 20th, 2009 3:43 AM Pacific Standard Time

wow. it feels funny that i now have to say pacific standard time. but i want you all to know EXACTLY when i write my entries; or at least, start them. so ive been flying for a total of 2 hours and 14 mins. and im telling you guys now... i am bored out of my mind ! i have nothing to do, now that ive taken care of the scrapbook that was given to me (thanks jackielyn and adrienne! :]), and the couple of letters and cards ive gotten. i bet im going to look through the scrapbook again and just skim through the pics for the next 23423804923809 hours, haha.

today was a defining moment in my life. i left home; home thats been home to me for the past 21 years and 5 months. just thinking about it right now makes me think ...."wow im actually going through with this !" for those of you who has spent the time to get to know me, you all know that i love playing it safe. well, when it comes to life as a whole that is. im the kind of guy that loves the regular goodmorning texts, and the routine hellos from the mailman. i mean, it sounds comfortable and feels comfortable. NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS DID I EVER THINK THAT I WAS GOING TO WALK AWAY FROM THAT. but i sure did.

there are a lot of you that have still yet to get an explanation from me; a solid explanation to really put a stamp as to why im putting myself through this struggle. but do i really need to ? growth is the only thing thats constant in this world, and this, my friend, is MY growing pain. heck, just typing this is making me hecka teary-eyed. but no worries.

I HAVE THE GREATEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD. hands down. thank you for all the going away gifts, the lunches, the dinners, the parties, the notes, the pictures, the drives, the laughs, the cries, the love, the support, the comments...EVERYTHING. you are all special. :]

but im going to cut this blog short (wow, im acting like it's short! haha) and explain to you for the next couple of blogs or so what my friends mean to me. throughout each blog will be featured a friend. im doing this due to the fact that i felt that i didnt have enough time to show all of my friends how much they meant to me. time is golden, and gold is rare. dont fret though! i wont miss one person i shouldnt. ill definitely keep you guys updated with everything thats going on with me.

May 20th, 2009 10:07 AM Pacific Standard Time

so after my last blog, i KNOCKED THE HECK OUT. haha. im watching paul blart: mall cop at the moment, and i must say that its lame so far. i hope it gets better. haha. anyways...i was asleep for like ...7 hours ! or maybe less ? ehhh whatevers haha. but im almost in taipei. probably about 4 and a half hours. the time is going by faster than i expected, knowing that i am alone. this is the first time ive traveled alone, btw. and its quite an experience. i dont have my mom or dad beside me to ask questions like ..."can you hold this real quick? how much longer til we get there? how long is the stayover?" haha im so not used to it, but no parents for 10 months ! i gotta get used to it.

before i left california, i already knew the hardest part would be leaving my loved ones and the flight itself. as im looking ahead towards the future, im more optimistic more than doubtful. i know i can handle this. and with all honesty, its my loved ones that helped me through this. im going to be honest, EVERYTHING that you guys said and gave me will keep me going. shoot, ever since i walked into this plane, i felt alone and sad that im not home anymore. but i guess you can say that i have my "little piece of home" with me.and thats how im coping with everything

gosh guys, i cant wait to record videos and show you guys how my lifes gonna be ! im excited for this opportunity, but dang, i miss you guys. -_- till i write again. :]

May 20th, 2009 11:46 AM Pacific Standard Time

so as im watching bride wars (aileen! thats our movie :])i turn to the right due to the brightness of a tv set that catches my attention, and i see the diagram of how far/close i am to my destination. and i am so close to taipei. maybe in a couple of hours imma be there. whats funny is that i dont even know when im supposed to land hahah. i also thought about how i passed through time zones, and i thought about my good friend inna. i love her. :] im about 8-9 hours away from landing in manila. once i get internet. get ready for this. :]

May 20th, 2009 7:35 PM Pacific Standard Time

so i was just thinking about the playoffs, and the cavs/magic game should be under way by now ! i hope that becomes a competitive series. ill root for the cavs. to be the best, we gotta beat the best right ? :] so a couple of hours ago, i landed in taipei and stayed there for about 3 hours. it wasnt too bad, coz there were computers with free internet ! i got to talk to karen, aileen, jagg, reesa, and more people to name. its so nice to hear from my friends ! i feel like its been forever already. dang, i dont even know, its like distance can take times place any day.

OH as i was waiting to board the plane in taipei, one of the attendants asked me if i had a guitar on my back. -_- i is a guitar DUH ?! hahah but thanks to my guitar, i got to board first. i felt like a VIP, just for a second hahah. im sitting in the very front of the plane, and there are no tv sets on, due to the flight being short. im soon going to start my life in the philippines; and though im very afraid and nervous of what's in store, im also very excited. this is for my parents. i love them with all my heart, and who doesnt love their parents right ? it just sucks that a moment like this shows you how much you havent told them. so please, for me, tell your parents you love them. :] and for my friends ...just like my parents, you guys are my drive to keep me rollin. yall are my influence.

Monday, May 18, 2009

you dont really know...

...what you have til' its gone. or almost gone in this case. there are so many things that i wish i couldve done. and i probably touched on 20 percent of that these past couple of weeks, or even days. its crazy how your look on life changes when youre about to make some big move. i never realized how important my freedom as an american is, or how much of a privilege it is to drive. there are so many things that i wont be able to do over there, and i hate the fact that i have to start over.

yes, i will hate starting over; but i love the opportunity of finding something new. i mean...who doesnt hate being in an unknown territory? where all you know is yourself? where everything around you is familiar not to you, but to everyone else around you? no one likes being left out of anything, even if you say you dont care. but thats what risks have, disadvantages as well as advantages. this is my version of an adventure. its time to live it up, and fill the 80 percent of what i couldve done to what i WILL do.


Tuesday, May 12, 2009


randolph: are you sleepy?
inna: no. because somebody got adrenaline rushing through my body and got me excited under my....YOU KNOW.

tuesday, may 12th, 2:31 AM
inna's time: 12:31 AM in hawaii

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH that made me laugh.......

and smile. :]